Haiyaaaa....

maybe I'm not a perfect friend
or not prefect kid of my mommy
or prefect student on my teacher mind.
but i will try my best treat the prefect to everyone..

I'm sorry everything !

"Summer after high school , we first met "

yeah, we first met after end my secondary life..

Impossibly that my heart still keep beating for you..

Or just a mistake..maybe?

 

If you see me walking with someone else,

It's not because i want to..

It's because you weren't brave enough to walk by me.

 

So if I fall in love with someone else,

It's not because i want to...

It's because you weren't there to catch me..

 

dislike this feeling..

that make me feel like a liar..

told you that i forget about it..

seriously, i still care..

i received your text, it will made me a day..

asked how's my life..

but

i know that just being friend asking currently..

 

No

Matter

What

I

Do

 

 

I

Still

Can't

Remove 

You

From

My

Mind

 ........

 

i hate this damn feeling!

lie because it's easier than telling the truth..

aiya!

 

 

Daddy lil girl

Dear daddy,

I may love a lot of man in the future, someday I'll get married to someone out there. But in the end let me remind you that, no matter what happen, you'll always be the best guy for me. I love you 'till forever ends :)

Lots of love,

Me

....

Dear daddy.
It's not very easy, living all alone without you.
realize that i can't found any friend who really can tell my sadness.
why you leave??  sorry , i can't blame on you.. 
but sometime i will think about it. Why the accident didn't take me away from here. why is you?
this family need you, superhero.. not me.. coward. 
STRESS..
pretend does not matter.. 

i hate my life. why happened all unlucky stuff on me?
sick life.
Life change, people change. Everything change. All goes wrong.
my direction missing.. my everything missing.
LOST now.

Daddy is God gave me the best gift,

and Mommy, sister and brother are my most treasured happiness.

 I’m sad, hurt, angry, mad, disappointed. But you know what? I’ll put on a smile and move on. It will hurt but I will survive.

Miss a man call Daddy :(

Who is the one person who can always make me smile?
Even when I'm mad at him?
Even when he makes me cry?
Even when he makes fun of me or laughs at me.
He is one of the people who has always been there for me,one who has always ♥ loved ♥, cared, and provided for me.
He is one of the two most important people in the world to me.

Someone I ♥ LOVE ♥ with all my ♥heart ♥.
He is my friend,my hero, but most importantly he is my...
♥Daddy ♥

Eight letters,

three words, 

one regret.

I miss you.

Daddy ,  He is my man who gives love, care and protection.
who never give up on me even how bad i am.
who never upset on me even my attitude is suck.
my dad love lasts a lifetime, even he's gone forever now.
he is a man who really love me in true and no regret.


He always work hard for his children without complain.

I'm sorry, never has been concerned about whether you are tired,  

forgive that I did not speak to you Say I Love You. 

I always think you are a superman will not be tired.
Now you're gone, that nothing else.

but... i do really love you , daddy.

i really care you..

every time, my friends asked me who the most i love.

i always say it loud MY DADDY without thinking any minutes. and felt proud to you , daddy.

i remember i'm the one who saw you at the last before you're gone.

i always remember what i said to you at the moment.

'Thank you, Daddy , take care'

You just smile and drove away.

and i always remember i'm the last person who knew that you went to heaven peacefully.

that's bad I'm the last one who knew.

At the moment , i just can't believe my ears and eyes.

kept stared you in the coffin , can't accept the truth.

kept telling myself , just a nightmare, a horrible nightmare.

woke up in the next day, everything become so reality .

i lost my mind. my tears out of control.

YOU REALLY GONE in my entire life.

cried before sleep every night.

you give me everything that i wanted.

but ... i can't give you everything that you wanted. 

i wanted give you everything in my further , that i possible effort everything.

i want too , but can't forever and ever.

i remember how you light up my life when i was in dark.

i remember you care , love me like nobody else.

i remember i promise that you will bring you to travel HK after i graduated , i have my job.

i remember that you the one that taught me how to cycle , bike.

i remember all what i said to you and what you did for me in pass.

My daddy who really love his mommy (my granny) 

he is the one who really care her.

took her go any where she wanted.

make her smile brightly when she was upset and angry.

he is the one who taught me how to be manner.

he is the one who called me hold my granny's hand when we hang out.

Don't worry , daddy. i will do the same like you did for granny in the pass.

accompany granny. hang out with her. do what you did for her.

You said that i still need you ,daddy who wanted hold my hand and create my  IC, when i lost it.

yeah , serious.. I'm really need you in my life , EVERY SECOND.

One regret.

i never say I Love You for you.

the last person that you celebrated your childrens' birthday is me.

I always proud i have a daddy like you.

you always is my man from start till my heartbeat stop.

everyday i miss you. my eyes start blur and tears make it.

out of control.

I'm so useless without you.

I'm so coward without you.

this few days , heard my friend saying about her dad.

it make me think about you , daddy.

the skies did the same , raining day.

The one who always accompany me watch sport channels , cheer the goal together and blame player together.

The one who always support me in front of my sister and brother, even i did wrong.

The one who always work hard for his family, no matter what.

The one is my daddy.

In the another life , you still alive and being my daddy.

 just try to think positive.

you always coordinate me what i said , no matter how silly action.

i can't look the photo that with you.

my tears will out of my control.

i put those video on or photo , when i miss you.

that's the only one way that i can see and feel you.

I can't hold your hand when i graduate.

i always wanted make you proud of me.

All , the things i haven do for you.

and you just leave peacefully.

my daddy is a strongest man in my world! 

i know you must be fight very hard at your last breathe.

but at last , you had surrender it.

i won't blame you. 

 I'm knew you're tired for fight. because in your life , you were fight for a good life for your family.

heard mommy say that your eyes had tears before that you're leave.

i know you must be felt sorry and no willing to leave us alone.

Rest in PEACE , daddy.

what i can't do for you . i will do for mommy and granny.

i miss your voice , laugh and LOVE.

 i will study hard ! wok hard !' 
make you feel proud of me .
let you know you have a great and good child .
no regret for born me.
let you feel proud in heaven.

  

I MISS YOU.

I LOVE YOU.

you're my all.

 

My man. ♥

 

cheat on someone?

Why cheat on someone?
 Why cheat on someone who decided to commit to you?,
Why cheat on someone who gave up time with their friends and family just to spend time with you?.
They decided to settle for you and gave all of their heart to you,
so why put someone who loves you with everything they have through this pain?
Cheating should never be an option in a relationship, if the relationship gets boring then talk it out with one another and if you can’t save the relationship then end it rather then “Cheat”.
  Remain loyal and faithful to the person you are with because how would you feel if someone who you gave your all to turned around and cheated on you?,
 Some people say “Shit happens” when they cheat, but honestly that’s not how it works because it takes two people to cheat,
 it “Happened” because you let it happen,
 you let this situation take place.
You know in your mind that it would hurt the other person if you cheated so you have the choice to say yes or no.
So all I have to say is don’t risk this relationship and make a stupid mistake.
Just be loyal and faithful to the person you are with, you know?

写给爸爸的话

爸爸，整个童年我离天空最近的一次，
是那次你把我高高地举过了你的肩头。


爸爸，你嘴上那些小时候常常会扎到我的胡渣，
是这世上最柔软的爱了吧？


爸爸，你变了，变得越来越老了，
可没关系，
因为也已经有人变得越来越像年轻时的你了。


爸爸，有人说女儿是爸爸前生的情人，


爸爸，从小你就是我最好的敌人，
因为你永远都肯输给我，
无论是玩象棋，还是比赛倒立。


爸爸，我所以小时候一直没养成过马路时要看红绿灯的好习惯，
是因为过马路时你总是不忘牵着我的手。


爸爸，第一次意识到我已经长的比你还高的那天，
我竟一个人莫名其妙地伤感了一整天。


爸爸，如果说我这双手如今还能紧握着有些东西不放，
那也是因为这双手曾被你紧紧握过。


爸爸，你知道吗？
小时候我最喜欢听到的话，是别人说我和你长得很像。


爸爸，当然是你的菜做得更好吃，
但妈妈更需要鼓励不是吗？


爸爸，如果说我笨，也是你小时候常常敲我脑袋的缘故。
但可能正是因为这样，我也才没有那么笨得不可救药。



爸爸，告诉你一个秘密吧：
在我还小的时候你一直是我心中最大的英雄
——现在也是。

这个世上最爱我的男人，爸爸！

Now you pass away..
i always be you as my idol , never change. I LOVE YOU !

oh yeah

I'm so happy today.
because i just received a news about Tokio Hotel of Bill Kaulitz :D
'cause he collaborates with FarEast Movement! Oh Goshhh
on a song named ' If I Die Tomorrow' on FEM's new album.
'Dirty Bass' the name of FEM album name.
I can't wait for it :D
will release in May..
that's hard feeling for waiting the song..
but i will waiting for you guys !
because i totally fallin' love with you guys ! No words can use ! :D
I'm just in love with you guys :D

They back

Big Bang.. oh gosh..
my purse going slim and more slim :P
i going but their album..
because i love their song very much..
I'm singing my blue`` my daily life.. i will sing it..
even i work.. my workmate can't behave me anymore..
even she try to make some noise.. but just useless !
Ja , please accept me just the way i am ! XD

Spring.. coming soon
that mean ??
Tokio Hotel new album gonna release soon too..
My purse recently on diet so hard :P
so it begin slim like a paper now :S
salary ! Boss , please pay me fast please..
i dont wanna miss the time to buy their album.. :P
and luckily i still have some saving money to alive end of this month :P
i try use my money , because i dont want using my parents' money anymore..
buy i surely seriously i wanted it badly.. or not.. dont think about it..'
WASTE is bad attitude . :)

Kampar or Penang ? =[

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily

Am i insane ?
Am i idiots ?
No.. no matter how stupid am i.. i won't be the stupid again.
i used to be the one who really care you.
but now on.. no way..
that's really stupid action i did in my entire life .
I'm not the one who say Hello easy and saying Goodbye so easily like ABC.
Easy come and just easy go.. If that's how you live , please get off my life .
I'm not use to be the person when you need , just on call 24 hours , what you want.
I'm not use to be the person when you sad , i need heard all your sadness.
when you are okay or dissolve it.. who care me ? who call me ? who message me ?
yuck, no one. i always say i don't mind how you treat me as.. but i do really MIND it , okay ?
once , twice , more than twice... at last you know what the feeling when your best friend try not to keep in touch with you..ignore you.. The way you feel , as my way i felt when how you treated me before. Is disappointed and heartache feeling , know ? dude.
that will be break up with guy more painful than the way you treat me as.
what should i do.. what should i do.. this question remind my mind whole day and every second. I not need a friend .. i need a true friend.. know ? who really can listen me ..
celebrate my birthday. and celebrate your birthday together.. i dont want any present. i just wanted you by my side.. is this hard ? sing a birthday song.. not just threw the present and say happy birthday.. huh.. Speechless.. I'm not part of your life , maybe ?
still is a ?? in my mind.

when i was sad.. you know ? who i can tell it... My Dog ?
who can share my pain and joy ? i guess no one. maybe some of them.
i can share it with them. They meant a lots for me. Glad that i found them.
She the one. She the one. who really care about me. Thanks. No matter how late how tired she is.. she will send message for me. Good luck for work.. Don't burn midnight oil on Facebook. Every second i can feel the love of the friendship she given to me..
Even my Birthday date, she can't celebrate with me.. she send me a video, made by herself. Call me at the midnight before end of my birthday.. sang it loud for me.
i cried. really touch... thanks and glad i have a friend like you :) Even she still work wanted treat me a lunch.. i stubborn and ignore it.. because some reason. She cried.. Sorry that i made you so touch.. XD Genting's life does not easy.. please take care.. no one is can be trust.. so don't trust people so easily but not include me yeah! XD
i would like sing Bruno Mars - Count on me , for you.. go hear it when you saw my blog post.. and remember dont cry like a baby girl ! XD mention for you first ! :D
She keep complaint me how come my blog didn't mention her once.. Lastly , i done my promise.. i wrote for you !
YEW MEI WEI.. saw it ? don't cry hard when you saw this :)

I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use .

Make some noise

My world is Tokio Hotel, i love them so much.

Sometimes i think i was born an Alien.

For me Tokio Hotel changed me to be a better person i used to judge people by the way they looked but Tokio Hotel taught me that people who are different are just okay as people who are considered normal.

Either way thanks to my 4 german boys i've learnt to accept people and be a kinder person♥.

Work all day , sleep all night

yeah , that's my life
bored and tired life..
really miss my high school life...
miss my friends..
we can't hang out like last year..
busy life.. study life..
but hope our friendship won't change of it..
since grow up.. need face more pressure and social life..
no mercy in this cruel or sick world.. just keep fight and move on..
for live ? for rich ? sometime need hard work..
that's why human being cold blood even worse than animals..
i really don't want grow up... :(

yahoooooooooo , GLEE

Since Glee was aired in May
I have been hooked to my TV waiting for the next episode.
It has only been on for a few months and already everyone seems to love that show,
some people don’t admit it but deep inside they do and they secretly watch it!
I don’t know if it’s the singing or all the different characters that everyone likes ?
I obviously enjoy all the singing and
I also enjoy all the different outfits in this show!
All characters in glee have got a different unique style!
I really like Emma Pillsbury vintage dresses and outfits see wears,
I think the outfits suit her character too, that’s what they got right!
I have to say that Rachel Berry’s style is amazing, I like all the old school 50′s outfits and skirts she wears!
Kurt Hummel has to be the best dressed guy on TV right now!

remix feeling

My birthday still the same..
Friend and friend can't celebrated with me........ /.\
but thanks pei sean , everything :)
and my darling , jasmine :) muchlove message :D

and Valentine day is coming...
my workmate busy help me find a valentine...
saw a customer , first ask got GF , second hp number........
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........
i just like WTH.. look like i'm wanted BF so badly /.\
hope you can stop it , ya ! :/
dont like it..

i want a normal day tomorrow please ! dont mess me up , girls !

Today and Tonight ;)

I had a good time and moment with my all dearest ;)
feel like we since during secondary school life :)
gossip , make fun in each others , play around , caught up all the moment with camera.
XD
i have missed this feel for long time :)
finally is came true ;)
Now all the girls is become pretty and prettier :)
Playing truth or dare.
damn damn damn..
why the stupid bottle aim me?? -.-
i just shouting his name out without control my mind and voice.
that's alright to told it, everything just NOTHING feeling now :)
seriously . i don't mind it. don't worry :)
so sorry that i hurry up my time get back ><
missed the others funny moment ><
alright , next time will stay longer as i wish :)
______________________________________
after back home `
play fire cracker and joker.
WTH , i loose the game.
and force dance born this way at the road. just like WTF!
but.. it's fun for me :)
sorry that i dance like a crab, don't mind it and better than just forget it ! :P

I'm tired !
:P

I'm so lucky to have a friend like you. HBTY!

I just want to say, Happy Birthday
To you, my dear, dear friend
You have always been there for me
And our friendship will never end

A cute and pretty girl was born at 24th 1994.
Glad her mummy born her, grateful :D
met her since 2007 ;)
and be my darling for endless
sleep need breathe ,every second we need breathing, she just mean for me like breathing ;)
till my breathe stop ;)
She just everything for me from that day we met til now :)
Stranger ?
Friend ?
Buddy ?
Darling :)
Today is her birthday , a special day for her
sorry , can't be celebrate on the day
need delay it :)

Side by side or miles apart
True friends are always close to your heart
Whether you're turning five or fifty-three
You know that I'm a true friend
because you're here beside me
Tomorrow 25th,
I'm there for you, right now, on your special day
So lets give a cheer for you, hip, hip, hooray!

That's the gift of a wonderful person coming into my life
Like I have in you!

i will looking forward to our many more years of fun and friendship. :P
and and and ,Thank you for your friendship through out all of the years.:D
i promise I will stay with you through and through forever and ever,
We will be friends until the end. :)

Jasmine , once again :D
Happy Birthday To You , my darling :)

/.\

seriously i damn jealous of my sister's birthday present !
Her friends just given her present that i always wanted :/
But last year , i most treasure and love present is my darling given !
a cup and design is Spongebob <3
i really love it and now days using it :)
Thanks ! i love the way she packed up the gift.
i still keep it all :) <3
Love yah!
don't worry , i love others too :D
every years birthday feel NOTHING.
huh. sad ><
hopefully i can celebrate with darling and my friends` <3
even one friend celebrate , i still grateful :/

I need to SHOUT OUT!
and please stop saying about the rumor guy that i used fell in love.
He is not.. You know i mean who is HE.
Don't say it loud without asking my permission to others please!
and don't say so sure for it ! how you know that ?
please use you ass think it before you say it ! ask me before and you can say it for sure!
arghhhhhhh ><
all friend just came and ask me , and say it loud , I LOVE XXX ! make me going to feel insane.
this really ain't funny and cool.
pffffff*
make me feel idiot action you did !
ishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ><

:'(

I totally upset, really , i do.
How come ? friend treat me like that ?
hurt.
every year like NO ONE know 'IT'.
She just my friend , but she know ' IT'
she just help me think everything about 'IT'
come back for ' IT'
i cried on phone, no one mind it, how care!?
only she did.
UPSET.
after that days pass, i'll tell what is 'IT'
hopefully don't make me upset, girl !
Talk all the bullshit ! damn!
/.\
REALLY SAD ! MOODY !
Before using your ass think it DON'T say any single words about I'm YOUR BBF !
Sorry , rude words ! BUT not for you ! for the looker of my blog.