for him_________

When you are in love and you get hurt,

it’s like a cut... it will heal, but there will always be a scar.

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Whenever I cried he would always make me feel like he would change the world

if he could so it couldn't hurt me anymore.

But now I’m crying and he's not here

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When you said forever,

you meant a few months

. When I said forever,

I meant every day until I died.

When you said always,

you meant until you couldn't handle it anymore.

When I said always,

I meant until time ended.

When you said you loved me,

you meant I was no different from any other girl.

When I said I loved you,

I meant I had never felt what I felt for you.

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was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again
and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new.
What is broken is broken?
and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it
and see the broken places as long as I lived.

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With you my heart will always stay.

With you my thoughts will be every day.

You remain to be the one that I regret letting get away.

Why didn't I say what I needed to say?

You are the one I will always use my wishes on.

You are the one I will always wish was never gone.

I'll constantly wonder what went wrong.

I'll forever think of what I could've did that was never done.

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